When There Is No One There To Love You

But most days you just really feel so alone. It is when you learn to love yourself first that someone can learn to love you. Embrace your flaws and turn your weaknesses into strengths. Never put yourself down. You are beautiful and never let any people make you feel otherwise. You are worthy of love. You are worthy of a true and lasting love, not the kind of love that is temporary. You are worthy of someone who will fight for you, who will never leave you, who will accept you no matter how ugly your past is.

And someday, you will get the love you deserve. A piece from me. Kept aside everything, there will be your family who will love you always, no matter what. Just strive for them.

Live to make them smile. Talk to them more often. There are a lot of people in this world, you already have a good life and you can live a good life. Keep on doing good things and it will be fine! I don't know what it feels or maybe I should say, I don't know how to express how it feels. Honestly, I don't have guts in me to say these to anyone. For the rest of the world, I seem to be perfect.

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Not boasting, but people often tell me that. A daughter who has always held her parents head high, an extraordinary student for the teachers, a best friend, a best sister, even a great school captain. A girl, who always has a smile on her face. Every time, why it's only me? Why I can't smile. I don't have the answers for my own questions.

I want to live. I want to laugh. I want to love. But why it's only me? I want to cry. I want to tell someone how it feels when you are lost in the crowd. I want to be free. I want to be free from the chains around me. It is when nobody says happy birthday. It is when family members say they love you yet don't show it. They don't know how to love you, and that is the same as not loving you.

It is being alone at lunch.

It is being alone and lonely all the time. It is spending hours online finding out how others managed to cope with the stinging feeling you get before you go to bed when your head starts spinning with all the evil truths that nobody cares about you. Sure, some may say they do, but who wants to listen to you talk about your passions? Who wants to help you out? Nobody even wants to take time out of their day to spend it with you. It's reading books on how to make friends. It's crying for hours wondering why nobody even likes you, much less loves you.

It's changing appearances and attitudes only to be rejected and alone and remain unloved. It's questioning who you are entirely, it's masking who you are and changing who you are and feeling likw you're crazy. It's wishing you could be okay with the fact that nobody loves you but it still feels like a hot hand gripping your throat and a heavy weight on your chest.

It's replaying every comment in your head over and over. It's terrible, you can't talk with anyone about it because nobody cares. It hurts, God it hurts. I know the feeling. It's depressing at first and all you want is someone to talk to, to care, to feel close to, and to be there for you. But after a while you just give up. I feel a lot of the same ways you do. My friends turned against me as well in high school 6 years ago and I still have no friends because I gave up trying to make or keep any friends because they always let me down if I do let them in.

I have a husband that I live with but he tells me all the time he hates me and yea it hurt really bad at first and I felt suicidal, but I got over it and now it's nice because I really don't care about him. I get the financial support and the benefits but i don't feel emotionally attached to him, he couldn't do anything to hurt me anymore after all the pain he has caused me and still tries to cause. It does feel free to not have other people put you through painful emotions that they cause and then want you to fix and apologize for. I haven't talked to my dad in 2 years and he has never been a dad, he's basically just a sperm donor and he used to tell me he couldn't stand me because I look and act like my mother and called me nasty names.

Then my mom has never really been a mom either, she was more interested in partying and boyfriends and was never there when I needed her. I felt hated and unwanted by her as well. So I don't let it get to me anymore, I really stopped caring about other people and the problems they cause me because I actually feel better without anyone but me. I used to want someone to cry to and tell my problems to, but I guess that's what a diary is for.

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She always made me feel special and important and I trusted her and adored being around her and I felt so lost and like I didn't belong in this world anymore when she passed. So my parents didn't know how to be parents because they never had to be parents. I never felt close to them and any time I did show that I wanted to feel loved and feel like I am wanted or any sort of cry for help they turned it around on me and what a terrible child I was and its my fault that I get treated like that and it's my fault.

So yea screw that I hate the way other people make me feel and maybe it is natural to be social and act like pack animals, but realistically we are born alone and die alone. The people who are ok with having only themselves are the very strong ones in this world full of dependent weaklings. I spent yesterday night thinking, not why people hate me. I was thinking about who could possibly like me. I woke up the next day with the realization that no one could truly like me.

My parents would brag about the fact that i ran away. I spent yesterday night crying my eyes out, unable to sleep, But then again what else could i do. Your in a house filled with people who despise you. You have classmates who use any opportunity they get to insult you. I would say some days are better than others but i would be lying.

The best friend you thought you had lied to you for months just for the fun of it. This is not going to end by me saying i love my life. I was actually afraid that no one will ever fall in love with me. She was my University Crush. I sent her a friend request on facebook. She not only rejected my friend request, but also blocked me. I was ugly, introverted and a back bencher in my school life.

I always tried to be friends with other students. I tried to do several things to impress them. But most of the students didn't like to be friends with me at all. An inglorious weekend evening, I was feeling empty. So, I called one of my friends to gossip but he told me he was busy. Called another friend, he did not receive my call and later switched off his phone. I thought that my life is meaningless and I have no right to live. I did not find anyone to motivate me or to convince me that. I have fought with depression throughout my life.

How do you feel now? I was waiting and expecting birthday wishes. But unfortunately did not get a single birthday wish from my friends and cousins. I was returning from office at midnight. It was a long tiring day. Moreover that day my boss insulted me a lot without reason. Suddenly I started to feel lonely and broken in the bus.

But I did not find anybody in my phone-book who I can call and share my loneliness. Literally nobody used to like me. Now I have stopped searching approval from others to start thriving. I have accepted myself just the way I am. I have started to work to impress myself, write blog for myself instead of impressing others, do what I love to do, avoid to pay attention to social media likes, views and up-votes, run in the morning, compete with myself to exceed yesterday's performance, go to bed and wake up early, maintain strict discipline, help poor children, meditate for hours after hours, learning primary steps of cooking from my mother, control excess emotions, spend quality time with real people instead of virtual people.

Life is becoming simple and easy. Surprisingly, people around me have started to like me. Lets take a walk photo by Spencer Watson thebrownspy on Unsplash. Well it depends upon what you feel about love as a concept. I don't believe in loving people or for that matter beings of any kind anymore. I have been into romantic relationships in my youth and let me tell you something from my experience. After my last serious relationship failed I was completely devastated. I felt so vulnerable that I couldn't sleep and I started hurting myself by indulging into drugs and other intoxications.

Looking at my condition one of my friend who was a spiritualist asked me to meet him when I am sober. I told him how my life is so full of sorrow and nobody loves me. He told me not to answer this question immediately and take my time to think upon it. I went back home and for next few days pondered on this question.

I came to this conclusion. Since that day I have started to take care of myself and I treat my body as well as my mind in a respectful manner. I dont seek pleasure nor feel pain for beings around me. I help them if needed but I never let them cling on my mind. My life changed a lot after that time.

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I became a meditation practitioner and apart from that my work efficiency improved too. Suddenly you feel that your life is worse, then you try to look out the window. You try to remember if there is still hope or still another chance to love again, but then you realize that all your friends are married. Then you remember your parents and they are getting old too. You try to ignore all these feelings, you try to be strong but then all your urges come back.

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It's only in ONE trailer. The Song I am looking for is sung by a male and a female singing in the chorus parts I'm not sure if it was really the chorus parts but it must be it went something like this: I want to know what the song is on a recent Blue Moon beer commercial that I saw. I can't find it anywhere! It's only a 15 second commercial and half of it is the announcer talking. The lyrics that I can make out are "I know she won't say so, long as I know To me, the voice sounds like Sting The Police , but my boyfriend doesn't agree.

Does anyone have a clue what I'm looking for??? Im looking for a song sung by a male. It goes, "and I'm Leave all your worries, all behind.. Looking for a song I heard on the radio a few weeks ago. This is the chorus. Look at all the pretty people looking back me I've got a million pictures in my head of things I don't want to see I wish I could make you understand just what its like to be me Look at all the pretty people looking back at me. I'm looking for a song i dont remember the lyrics because i was a kid when i first heard it but in the music video there were two young kids one boy one girl who were skating and dancing?

With older kids in a park or something and then they got kicked out because they were young and went to dance somewhere does anyone know a music video like this?

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